Mummy learns ...

This is a day worth remembering, a harsh lesson for me. 2 things happen today which really left me in a very depressed mood. It has always been a hard time disciplining u especially when u r at grandma's house. This time, it got really bad. I bring u to bed for ur nap, u refused to sleep, u asked 4 a story, I said "later". N u started wailing! U refused to stop. I waited very patiently n I nearly lose control. U finally stopped when ur grandma tells u to cos u r disturbing baby from her sleep. It was very bad. Later on at night, while preventing u from fighting over a toy, u actually lashed out at me, u hit me continuously. Of course, I was furious. U did what u always do, wail. When I was trying to punish u, ur grandpa bring u to his room and u were pacified immediately... We went home n u knew u were in hot soup. U were ignored. u dare not make too much noise, u did what u were told to do...

So, what's my lesson learnt? I reflected, I really did.. where on earth did I go wrong? At 4, u can argue very well. If I dont get to the root of the problem, it is going to be a very huge problem.

U or rather I have not been spending time with u. That's probably the root cause. N I mishandled u in a rough manner thrice already. I remember. I did not learn. It's my mistake.