This is life!

6 Dec - Mummy was tested positive :0 Papa and myself was really really shocked.. but well.. it's another bundle of joy ya? N Jerome, u said it's going to be a Didi ... N Carrie, well.. u stil the same.. crawling here, crawling there.. making funny faces, showing ur super manja look... i wonder if u hv felt it:) We took a while to overcome the shock, when that's over, papa n myself were plang 4 e future, a future with 3 of u in tow... We were worried, very very worried abt not being able to give each of u enuff attention n not able to guide u 3 properly n not able to groom u into useful adults ... but we hv decided to stay tough n we know together we can make it happen.. 15 Dec - Dr do a scan to confirm. Mummy saw the sac Life went on as usual.. we take our walks at the Lake Park, we goes to the market for breakfast. Excitement is building up, at the same time stress is also buildg up.. 23 Dec - Papa n Mummy went to see the doc. We were very excited abt the new bundle of joy .. my instinct told me tt it's going to be a boy . i just knew.. i dunno how . But Doc confirmed a miscarriage. It was unbelievable, after all these ... Mummy went home n told u abt it ... I said, " Jerome, mummy has no baby alr." You said, " Why no more?" You sort of know tt it's a lost but dun really understand y the lost... I tried a white lie .. I said "The doc made a mistake. " You said,"u mean the dr check the wrong place.." u can stil make me laugh ... But anyway, as we gave u yr christmas presents today, they became good distractors. 24 Dec Papa n mummy have to go to the hospital to get things done ... A loss is a loss ...

Anyway.. words simply cant describe how precious the 2 of u r.. after tis incident, the family is now brought to yet another level. I am not sure if we r trying 4 another baby ... Perhaps, god has everything in store for us .. I believe tt everthing happens happened 4 a reason. No matter what .. we love u 2 ya!!!

Carrie is 6 months 3 weeks old :)

How time flies .... mummy hv stopped updatg blogs cos u sleep lesser now... u seems to hv slept 'enuf' for the 1st 3 months n now... we can spend 45 mins rocking u to sleep, u wil sleep 4 like 40 mins.. low return type of investment but well .. stil got to continue with such investment:) u love to move abt, u love to play, u love music, u love putting everything into ur mouth, fav food? the corners of the foam mat - to date, 4 corners came off alr:) u love listeng to Gor Gor, like he's where all the fun begins. Gor gor hv been helpg mummy to pat u to sleep.. He love sleeping by ur side, holding ur little finger in his hand, smothering kisses all over u - too much sometimes.. N gor gor love to be the first one to announce tt u hv POOed:)

burger xperience

tis is e 1st time u prepare ur own lunch.. can c tt u enjoyed it tremendously.. must make good use of tis long leave to try as many new things with u :) tis is hte 1st time i sucessfully posted a video after several attempts.. just got to keep trying ya!

botak!

Despite protests from all my dearie frens.. i stil shaved her.. the botak Carrie.

e SMILE!

Another outdated post to show a outdated picture.. but this picture is so valuable cos these days, it is almost impossible to capture her in proper poses.. not to mention smiling.. she s always on the move!

What a lifestyle! ~ Carrie Chai

u r abt 7 weeks old now, n amazingly, a very mummy friendly routine is developed... last time, i only can get envoious of other pple experiencing this but this time, hahahahaha... over the last 3 nights, ur last feed is at abt 2000 n u slept thru till 0500.. hahahahahahahhahahahhahahahahahahhahahahahhahahahahahahhahahahahah........... too bad, i got to wake up at 0200 to express milk or else, hee hee.. imagine i can sleep thru the night! Not sure if this is going to be a permanent gift from u but thanks .. 4 the wonderful 3 nights! Anyway, this is how u lived ur life @ 1-2 mths old.. Drink milk, rest, coos, looks at mobile, cry a bit, sleep, wakes up, change diaper.... Drink milk, rest, coos, looks at mobile, cry a bit, sleep, wakes up, change diaper.... Drink milk, rest, coos, looks at mobile, cry a bit, sleep, wakes up, change diaper.... "Exciting" rite!!

The mobile

U love the mobile (sponsored by Auntie Kathleen~meh2 and Shu2).. U would look at it, stare at it and when u r abt 5 weeks old, u started cooing to it. I remmebered ur first 'a goo goo' was first heard by meh2 and nai2, it's on the 210309, the day shu2 just returned fr Thailand, the day he first met u:) but ur favourite mobile would fail to attract u when u r hungry.. usually when u r well fed, u would be left in the rocker to enjoy ur mobile, if there's no major dis comfort, u would usually dozes off:P Yeah!

Breast feeding

2nd time mum.. first time full time breast feeder.. been seeking help from fellow mummies, aunties min had been giving very useful tips though she herself is a first time mummy.. thanks to all the aunties, I actually became ur only food source from 120209. Breastmilk suppose to do u a lot of good but i will only know its benefits as u grow older, hopefully, u r stronger. But bcos of the breastmilk, u r experiencg some allergic reactions to some stuff i eat. So, i am staying off coffee and seafood mainly, if it dun works, i will hv to stay of eggs, wheat, nuts, soy etc etc.. Just like what auntie Jo said, just got to express religiously 3 hrly.. so, the timing goes like tt .. 0530, 0830, 1130, 1430, 1730, 2100, 0200 daily n each session takes abt 30-45mins.. i wonder how long i will last, for ur sake, at least 6 mths k!:) E supply is largely determined by how much i eat too.. the moment i cut down on carbs, the milk supply also goes down, luckily, mumy do hv enuf 4 u (some 4 gor gor) but definitely not in abundance. i tries latching u on a few times but was hestitate myself cos u alr gotten into a 4 hr feed cycle. The few times i latched u on, i ended up with a sore nipple, the nipple always appears half flatten. it's poor position and u r definitely not properly latched on, so i stopped trying.. Hv decided to give u bottled breastmilk all the way .........

The wonderful Gor Gor!

U hv been a really wonderful Gor Gor! I know u r tryg ur very best ... U understand the Mei Mei 's need for attention n has been playg independently as much as u can. U r best at helping me turn the mobile for mei mei, to put the pacifier back onto the mouth when it drops off, to "yao yao" mei mei in the sarong, to pet her on her tummy when she dozes off to sleep land.. i am been extremely proud of u! Of course, u took a while to get used to it but much faster than I hv imagined! U were really cranky for a week when mummy n mei mei is in the hospital and when we came home.. but we worked that out really soon.. U r like a big boy now, I am enjoying the stay at home cos of u and mei mei ... really feel the bonds strengthening, so mummy hv decided to stay hm longer (another 5 months of unpaid leave - quite a bit of money but can never measure up to the joy u two brings!) Po po says that Mummy shld just let u 2 be more independent and leave u in the care of Kakak (Nin) but I choose to think otherwise, I just hope tt this bond would lasts us a lifetime especially during the times when u r growing older ...

Ms Spitter!

u little fella, u drink and u love to spit! I actually noticed that happening even when u r in the hospital, it's pretty normal for babies to regurgitate cos of the immature stomach muscles but u r throwing up too much ... even with smaller feeds, thank god, u r gaining weight, thus doc says it's ok.. even up to today (3 Apr) u do throw up still @ 6pm particularly n whenever u burp... cos of all these throwing up:( u have rashes all over ur face/behind ur ears/back .. )!!! I sincerely hope these r just milk rash n not ezcema.. still monitoring.. Auntie Youmin says to try applying ur urine to get rid of the milk rash (that's what she tried on Shannon), some parts clreared up but came back in no time! N they just keep multiplying! we hv been trying to change u out of the milk stains shirts and mittens and bibs n cleaning u after every feed, see how it goes...

The No. 4 first day @ home

Nai Nai waited with Gor Gor and Jie Jies @ home for u, mummy was worried and scared (ya, it's my 2nd time but ... ), i wasn't sure what to expect really.... with 2 5-yrs old, 1 1-yr old n 1 4-days old at home all at the same time.. :) well, the kids were all excited to see u, u came home and slept throughout.. Reality starts kicking in!

9 Feb 2009

It's the day Dr Kee schedule to deliver u... Carrie Chai! This time round we checked in ourselves instead of waiting for labour signs, mummy was a little scared, it's a surgery after all, at 12noon, they got mummy ready before sending us as one to the op room, cant described how i felt but it was really like having very mixed feelings.. told myself to just wait and i will c u soon.. I looked at the clock just before the doc administer the GA, it says 1230hr, I fell into a deep sleep within milliseconds, when i next open my eyes, i wanted to say "quick, where's the doc? Get it doen quickly" but only to be told "IT'S DONE!" wow.. u r born @ 1246hr.. So short in comparision to Gor Gor's, he took me 24 hrs n u - 16 mins!

My "Xiao Bao Bei"

Hello dear, we'll be meeting in 2 weeks time, Dr Kee said u r very active and progressg well... I look super huge now, can u imagine a penguin wobbling around? Ur brother call me Kungfu Panda:) Still thinkg of a name for u:) Am always paranoid during this stage of pregnancy, Dr says will take u out on either the 9 / 10 feb, we'll see.. Grow well, we'll see u soon:P

My " Da Bao Bei"

It's been a while since I got really angry with u.. My patient had finally paid off. U speak in a gentler manner now, u know more about being gracious, ur willingness to share has increased tremendously. U make the last trimester of being pregnant with mei2 . U would hug her by putg forming a circle around tummy, u r so motivated n read ot her every evening [ur reading has improved tremendously too:) u r at Key to Readg Book 2 now ] Serioulsy, I hv nothing to grumble abt. I thank heaven for everyhting u r nu shld remember this now, u r truly godsend .. of course still keepg muy fingers crossed, as the growing up phase is always full of surprises, really... u r truly god sent....... i love u so much.