Stress

Hi Jerome, Mummy was so caught up with work that I hv no time to check yr wk, u hv independently completed as much as u cld n am not getting complain fr anyone, till tt long weekend.. I asked u several times if u hv completed yr wk, u said u did but to my horror, an hour before bedtime (sch's start the next day) I found pages of work undone! Of course, I scolded u, tis is 2nd time I found out tt yr work is not done, am sure there r occassions when u hv forgotten but managed to get off it without e tr havg to call... That's not e point anyway.. U managed to get all the necessary done n went to bed as usual. BUT tt nite, u woke up in e middle of e nite n said, "Mummy, hv u checked my book.." My heart broke, poor thing, i must hv been too harsh, daddy says, perhaps we shld teach u responsibilities in smaller chunks, perhaps... i will try, i will remember .. Hang In There, my son, life s full of desserts, no matter how much we r eating, it will turn out sweet n it will turn out all right. Everything happens for a reason, all the times, for good reasons:)

7 July 2011

Today is a bad day:( one of the worst in my life. I heard 2 really really bad news within a span of 10 mins. Everything happened for a reason.. I was not supposed to be in the office today but I went back... Just as I was abt to leave, I met a lady whom I had respected. She is a confident woman and she is always smiling. Today, I saw tears in her eyes, she shared a piece of devastating news, I was speechless... As when she got ready to go off, another devastating new greeted me, I was .............. Dear Carrie and Jerome, You are really 2 very important people in my life. Jerome, you are now 7 and had started school, you are now exploring and widening your social circle. You are learning by the mins, by the seconds, I love talking to you and listening to you each night before bedtime. You have grown to be a very thoughtful boy, but very sensitive too. There are times when you faced frustrations and stress, you are learning to manage them now. We'll be by your side, ok:) Just like how you resolved the problem when one of your classmates disturbed you many times, now you are good friends. How your feelings towards the friend changed from resentment, anger to being tolerant, to being forgiving and finally acceptance. This is an impt lesson, all these tough times you faced and will be facing will only make you a better person as long as you are willing to face it with your heart:) Remember, we are by yr side, all the times! You have been a wonderful brother, most of the times:) Carrie, you love your brother as much:) You imitate everything he does, remember - "Carrie, are you a copycat?" "No, I am a Teddy bear!" when Gor Gor talks about his sch each night, "Mummy, I also want to talk abt my sch!" you really melt our hearts, you are very stubborn at times, you are learning how to deal with accepting "NO" as an answer. Take your time dear, it's ok. We'll be by yr side:) Each time when we knock into something or say ouch, u wil say ,"r u ok?" Each time the phone rings, if it's Nai Nai, you wld ask in yr fluent CL,"Chi bao le Mei you." If it's Po Po, "Ni zai na li?" so funny... You have a pretty heart, keep it up:) Let's pray hard for the 2 kids ...

Poo poo time ...

when u r a few months old ........

When u suddunly wakes up from ur whichever time nap, u dun cry n instead u do the finger licking good .. it's poo time! whenever we change u out of ur soiled diaper... u would be smiling n smiling n smiling in such a satisfied manner... lots of shit ya?!

When u r 1y rplus ......

You would stop in yr track n make the "eee ' sound. Now we bring u to the toilet bowl n u could do yr business there.. u can fit into the child toilet seat alr... n could stay there when we tell u to.. great achievement u know:) so proud of u.

Gor Gor.. Papa

Gor gor .. gor gor .. papa papa.. yr little sis is so cheeky.. she started off calling papa and didnt know how to say gor gor. then whenever we asked her to say gor gor, she would say papa instead.. we would all laugh. Now, even if she knows how to call u gor gor, she would stil call u papa purposely then smile cheekily.... just this morning, when we r getting ready to go to nai nai hse, she took yr shoes for u, then went back to her shoes, u just step forward n wear her shoes for her, u said,"Mei mei don't know how to wear her shoes, more important.." so sweet... I couldnt stop smiling the whole day u know.. I love u baby:) the wonderful gor.. i mean 'papa'' :)

12 hrs but only 15 mins

sigh.. it's been really busy @ work.. i was like working non stop n i could not clear my work.. goodness.. wat's worse.. tt day when i sit in front of e com, i really feel like crying.. suddenly i just thot if all these are worth it. Finally, it's Fri, e day i hv been waitg 4. It's a long fri though.. sigh. all of us woke @ 6am tt day, in half an hr time, I say goodbye to both of u n went off to e battle field. E day's finally ended n it's time to go home to both of u. I reahed home @ 8.45pm n Carrie was alr asleep, Jerome was reading wih Papa, I bathed n when I am done, I got Jerome ready for bed.. all of a sudden.. this thot flashed thru ym mind, "wat did i do in my last 20 hrs?" e breakdown goes like this : 15 mins carrie n jerome, 0 min papa, 13h30min @ work. remaining hrs? decided to pen tis down.. cos it feels terrible. It's been 4 months since I returned to work n am working like 12 hrs daily... REFLECTION! Re focus! y r my precious given such little time................. sorry dear, luckily, papa's supportive.. i love u all:) thank you lao gong, do not think i can ever get thru this without u ....

double eyelids

hee hee heee .... finally finally .. can u see..DOUBLE EYELIDS.. u pretty lady. U know how cheeky u r.. before u go to bed everynite, u wil be busy moving stuff down from e big bed.. n u would purposely come down from the big bed-head first... u enjoyed it so m uch tt u kept doing it .. naughty naughty.. u learn how to somersault yrself, u r one big risk taker n one super playful 1 yr old, u laugh loudly when gor gor move towards u, u would think he's chasing u. stay happy dear:P

no pay leave

2009 was a beautiful yr ... cos I am not getting paid :) I was on leave. Papa n myself decided tt I shld take a yr's leave just to stay home with both of u ... seriously, it's pretty fustrating to be stuck home all e time... but i started to plan n eat my meals properly, i hv time, i brought u to the park more often.. u conquer e spider web e 2nd time u tried... u r indeed my pride n joy n fustration.. but these r not wat money can buy. 2009 was a beautiful yr cos of both of u .... wat is happiness without sadness really, thank u DARLINGS!